Attitude History

I wish that some things just didn't happen.  At least, I know now what not to do.  I should have known before, though.

Giving up Stuff

So, we get a night at home instead of hot fudge.  ... and an alarm clock for me.  ... and if we need anything else.

Blogging

I wish I knew people who blogged as much as I did or at least kept up a pretty good blog.

I've lost stamina in ...

... wanting to change the distant past.

I somehow settle with things in the more recent past.  I'm just glad when things do get settled in one way or another.  I wish some things didn't happen, but I'm pretty happy.

Tired

I don't really feel like doing anything.  It's probably because I woke up recently.  I can imagine just getting to work.  I have a feeling, too, maybe, my dad wants to rest, today.  I'm hoping he'll take me shopping sometime, which I'm sure he will.  Usually, I'd watch a movie, now, but I don't really curl up, much, anymore.  Don't be surprised if I fall asleep.

Resistance to Temptation

I resisted something that happened in my sleep.

Sorry

I am sorry for all the people who were affected by the "n" word thing.

Something Obvious

So, should I not deserve anything, finally, since the "n" word thing?  (I thought someone wanted me to call them the "n" word.)  It seems settled no one really wants me to have peace, but there's nothing they can do about it.

 Here Lies
 Christina
Rest in Fury

Sluggish

I should start recording 2 other TV shows I might be missing, too.  1 doesn't show every day.  I feel like having a little fun and then going to bed.  When I talk to my grandma, we talk for about 45 minutes.  I need to call her sometime.  I'm telling her I might not call every day, I think.  It's okay with her, it seems.  I mean, I feel like doing a little on the internet and then maybe going to bed, again.

Ghosts

I feel an eminent sense of danger lurking in the shadows.

A few days or a week ago, I saw a big black mass of a ghost, and this time, though it took awhile to settle in my senses, I really saw the black inky mass.  I was about to go into my room, which is the garage.  I got to the laundry room and saw it at my door.  It had like maybe little triangles sticking out as hands as it like escorted me to the garage.  I was about to watch Ellen DeGeneres, sometime.

Fake

So, is the world being fake?

20 Hours of Sleep

I just ate supper and am gonna do the dishes soon.  I want to ask my dad to go to the grocery store and to get an alarm clock with me, but I feel like sleeping or something.  I might wait to be alone to watch TV, which would be sometime int the A.M. hours tomorrow.

Maybe, I'll get something to eat.

I kinda wanna go back to sleep.

I know these people...

...are still using the "n" word thing as an excuse for all their past problems.

I thought I was accomplished.

Have fun trying to dig into my past.

Mistakes

Do you know anyone who morally lies and can't help giving away things that are not supposed to be repeated?  I thought people were supposed to be strong.

I think I'm gonna lie down again.

14 Hours of Sleep

Woah

I've never slept straight that much.  I felt like I was going to die on nothing but my psychiatric medicine.

I dreamt I was really thirsty and drinking like 3 cups of wine, which I've never had, so I switched to water with ice so I wouldn't get drunk.  I noticed I wasn't feeling drunk, at all, what I thought being drunk would be.  I just felt quenched.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

I noticed I don't get the same kind of respect as I used to get.