Sunday, April 29, 2012

I'm having fun!

I'll be on Twitter in sometime.

Website Edit: Heading on Picture

I added where I forgot to add that I lived in northeastern Florida on a picture.

Me Through the Years

Why do people want me to call someone the "n" word?

If people so wish I did by my own will call someone the "n" word, rather than them acting like they really want me to do it, that proves that the other people are guilty because that's what they wish happened.  Also, if the people on the other side wish that, as well, that proves that they did it, really did symbolically wish for me to do that.  I think it was more than just the subconscious.

Not Heartfelt

I can dictate to someone my best wishes, but people seem to think I'm not heartfelt.

Others's Problems

Why do people go blaming their racial problems on me?

Dealing With Things

I might not get what I want, but I know I'm right.  I don't think people should be mean to someone just because they used the "n" word.  They might have to to keep them from using it again.  People walk by me and think of racist things, though.  That's why I don't like Orlando in a lot of ways.  I just assume it makes them weaker as a person and they don't know what to do.

Just Because It's Me

I know people are mean to me just because it's me.

How does this [really] work?

Why should I pretend to be guilty for the sake of someone else?

Violence

People are violent around me because they can tell I am guilty of things but that are misunderstandings and awkward situations.  I did post about them in my blog but didn't feel like pinning them to my website.  I guess it's something that should pass.

Interesting Topic

I wonder if someone acted like they wanted me to call them the "n" word because I was going to.  I'm sure though I wouldn't have if I didn't think they wanted me to.  That's something lodged in my subconscious.

Interesting Topic

I wonder if someone acted like they wanted me to call them the "n" word because I was going to.  I'm sure though I wouldn't have if I didn't think they wanted me to.  That's something lodged in my subconscious.

MySpace Update: I added a new magic thing that happened to me this morning.

It's #10 right now.

http://www.myspace.com/christina-barrett

Forget It

You can't hope I wanted to call someone that and then make me suffer all the time for it.  I'm forgetting it!

Hello, People

I'm not the one who even wanted to use the "n" word.  I thought some other people wanted me to.

Getting Skinny

I wonder how people get skinny.

I'm guessing they keep buying salads.

It seems rich people have nice places to stay so spend a lot of time not gaining stress fat and feeling like they deserve a lot, whereas other people don't.  If you have something, it's yours to enjoy.  There are lots of ways to slim the bill, but I don't know how worthy I am of spouting that statement.  I had to give up a college career, which dones on my self-worth.  That means I have no options.  I can't get hired, neither, but I don't want to try right now.

I know there are lots of rich people who are at least partially obese, though.  They don't live in a perfect world.  Most of them probably are high business men with rigorous schedules and nights a the office, but who knows.

I guess people in show business and their families are doing what a normal person would like, getting nice things and expressing oneself to one's utmost.

MySpace Edit: I took down my race.

Mental Reaction

I find now I always have to react with something concrete, which actually is a curse word or something bad but otherwise not too bad.
I find that, if I don't want to curse but curse words keep entering my subconscious, it only comes hard like once a lot of times and then I forget it.  Sometimes, it pops up after something happens.  What doesn't work also is going around thinking about others, "You're NOT *beep*."  They know it comes up.  Sometimes, I don't think anything, and then "You're *beep*," comes up and I have to fix and say "not."  That's often a light onset.

Things only enter me at a somewhat shallow level.  I notice now for some reason it's actually quite thick and solid instead of more abstract and spacious.

Things That Enter the Realm of My Mind


I find that, if I don't want to curse but curse words keep entering my subconscious, it only comes hard like once a lot of times and then I forget it.  Sometimes, it pops up after something happens.  What doesn't work also is going around thinking about others, "You're NOT *beep*."  They know it comes up.  Sometimes, I don't think anything, and then "You're *beep*," comes up and I have to fix and say "not."  That's often a light onset.

Things only enter me at a somewhat shallow level.  I notice now for some reason it's actually quite thick and solid instead of more abstract and spacious.

5 New Pictures of Me

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