It's funny how, with stereotypes ...

... people are more concerned about getting nuances and habits down more than getting it right.

Stereotypes

Stereotypes

Gay

I'm from Florida, so I'm gay.

I might go eat soon.

Why oh why does this always happen to me!?

I was very much a perfectionist, but people always picked into me to death thinking I wanted something.  Maybe, they know I wasn't a perfect baby.  Something awkward always happens to me.  It's not fun.  I wanted a real life experience.

Tomorrow Morning

I think I should call my grandma in the morning and wish her a Happy Mother's Day.  I have a funny feeling about today.  She seems to want it to be special for my mom and wondered why we called her all these years.  She will assume I am asleep.

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" - the Videos Online

I was looking at her website and looked under when it's on in your area.

http://ellen.warnerbros.com/about/whenitson.php

Underneath the map, it shows a link to watch videos

http://ellen.warnerbros.com/videos

and seems to show the shorter parts of her on her show.

Resurrecting|Reconstructing the Past

I'm wondering what I should have done differently in high school when I was 16.  I already am over what happened when I was 14.  Okay, this is what it would have been like.  I used to write about this over and over!  There are different details as to what happened.

APG = Advanced Placement | Gifted
H = Honors

1. English IV APG
2. Advanced Math | Trigonometry APG
3. American History H
4. Physics H
5. Foreign Language II
6. Talented Music
7. Talented Theater

activities: ballet

next year

I moved schools to take English V.

1. English V APH
2. Calculus APH
3. World History
4. Health | Civics
5. Religion IV
6. Free Period?
7. Free Period
8. Music School in New Orleans - (Classical) Music H

activities: ballet

College

1. Honors English I - 3
2. Honors History I - 3
3. Ballet Repertory - 3
4. Recital Hour - 0
5. Freshman Voice Lab - 0
6. Major Ensemble - 1
7. Minor Ensemble - 1
8. Voice - 2
9. Theory I - 4
___
17

:'(  I don't know if things worked out for the best.  I mean, I can kinda play the violin.

So, some people think ...

... doing the arts in college is just talking about something everyone does, feel or something.

Don't younger kids have benefits?

When I Was 16 in High School

My dad said I could just stay home and hang out because I was having a hard time though usually got all A's.

I had in my subconscious...

...the idea that I should just stay home and not go to college.  It seems feasible that I get a part-time job because it's what people do.  It's fun.  In my station, I get more money.  ... but, no, Orlando isn't friendly!  In a way, it is, but when you really meet people it isn't often.

My Brother

Well, my brother is home from college.  That's probably why.  I have to steer away it seems.  I have to change my schedule.  I don't know how much I feel like watching TV, eating, or ironing when he's in the living room.  Normally, it would be okay, but everything has been so different since moving to Orlando.  I think it's because I had to quit college.  I didn't work, but my brother did, too.  People had treated me differently since I was kicked out of my major.

I usually get excited about calling my grandma on Mother's Day.

However, I don't think I should barge in, this year.  I've been feeling mellow and just want time alone and with my family.  I did enjoy calling her every day, but I think something has happened to me and I need to take a break.  Maybe, one day, I'll be active and call her like every day again.  It's sad to me, but I have problems.

Bad Words

So, for the past 2 1|2 years, I've been living about the fact that I just thought a couple wanted me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word online as an ice breaker and to make the word seem fun.  Someone should have told me, if they knew and didn't want me to do it and would hurt me if I did.  I deleted it, anyway, pretty quickly, and have a feeling no one other than some close relationships in a way saw.  I honestly think in a way there was nothing wrong with things like that, but now I know it just isn't necessary.  I was kinda called the "n" word symbolically by the family, and they'd been at me, it seemed.  I wouldn't go out of my way and bring up the word.  I don't think it's okay, in a way, but for some reason it makes sense that I'm innocent.  I was made to believe the father was online calling me bad things about my race replying I wasn't white.  Supposedly, I'm supposed to accept that, though.  That's what doesn't make sense.  I accept things like that, now, but people sneer at me in sarcasm because I learned the hard way.  Go ahead, please call me the "n" word and don't feel bad about it.  It's bound to be what happens sooner or later.  Better yet, I'll try to go on and hope nothing bad happens and don't recommend that curse words and words that mean "stupid" be used.

Anger Management

I notice people think I don't deserve a lot of things.

I feel bad about changing accounts, now.

I think it's okay, but I'll see what actually happens.

... and, then, some cakes and tea!

...  Order what you will.  There'll be no bill.  It's complimentary.

My mom asked me to have Mother's Day cake, but I had to take a shower.  Then, she asked me to have tea, when I was done.  I'll have supper later, when my parents go to bed.

YouTube

I've linked my old YouTube to my new YouTube.  I might go around and link more sometime.

http://www.youtube.com/ChristinaXXBarrett

I'm taking a a shower and bath.

I could be 45 minutes but maybe less.