To Punish Me?

Well, she usually is very nice, but after awhile she got more critical and it really hurt me.  It hurt me that we kinda argued.  She got mad because I said I don't know if I'm gonna never go without eating a whole day.  I yelled at her when she was speaking like I could barely hear in a funny way on purpose and hung up.  She called back.  I dunno, it's just honestly been hurting me a lot.  So, that's why I don't know.  Why call her, then?  I know she's earnest, but it's like she knows I'm not ready.  I knew that.  I just felt pressured by other people to call her every day anyway, though she clearly understands some days I might skip.  I even asked her what if it's too late.  She said we just won't do it then.